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blithefool:

Seriously. Get out of my head.

Trigger warning for talk of suicide and general depression

I’m gonna go out on a limb here and say dorksidefiker probably inspired all of these. She gives me many Jono feels.

When Jono was 12, he begged his parents for a guitar. They dismissed the idea as ‘pure frivolity’ then retreated to their summer home. So, Jono scrimped and saved his pennies and, 8 months later, was able to afford a very well worn Epiphone. The action was horrible and the strings made his fingers bleed. He loved it.

Jono didn’t find out Gayle was ‘Lady Edgerton’ until the third date. He promptly accused her of slumming it in typical indignant Jono fashion. He still wonders why she forgave him.

Jono Starsmore has attempted suicide twice in his short life. The first was when he was 16 and feeling particularly useless. He swallowed a fist full of his mother’s pills. His father found him and he had to have his stomach pumped. The second occasion was at The Massachusetts Academy. The only one who knew was Angelo and he’d seethed and punched Jono square in the nose when he found out. It hurt far more than carving into his wrists had.

After suicide attempt number 1, Jono’s parents had threatened to have him committed. He managed to  talk them down by agreeing to see a therapist. His name was Howard and Jono hated him. He spent the first month of therapy in a staring contest with the man. Eventually, Jono decided to just lie. That was its own form of entertainment.

Jono is, primarily, a self taught musician, though he did learn a few things busking with Julian. Julian was middle aged, unwashed and, presumably, homeless. Jono couldn’t remember a time when Julian wasn’t inebriated but, he was a hell of a guitar player.

 When Angelo died Jono kept his engraved Zippo lighter and his crucifix. They’re in the top drawer of his dresser.

I forgot about these…

twbasketcase-blog:

LMFAO I have rped Jono for a number of years now, and this headcanon has evolved and changed and sometimes I laugh because it’s so melodramatic. That makes me horribly mean, I know 😉

But I guess my line of thinking is this: back when I was a baby college student and getting into health care, we were doing lots of bio labs on human functions and sensations (urine, temperature, nerves, autopsies, that kind of thing) and we once did this test on our nerves that included pain, heat, cold, and nothingness. The way our nerves bundle, you can sometimes only feel one sensation at a time in certain areas, but other times you are sensitive to more than one. It was kind of neat, actually! They are all separate sensations that are felt.

We know Jono can feel pain because he’s gotten his arse kicked a number of times now, lol. We also know that he can experience pleasure because…well, why else would he have had sex with Sugar (yeah, he was still emo about it, but he obviously enjoyed the intimacy or else wouldn’t have stuck around to be blatantly used).

So I think there’s definitely some chance of feeling temperature there as well! Problem is, he doesn’t have proper circulation so I doubt there are often times when he is hot (if ever). Hell, if he got hot he would have had many more problems in that issue where they were stranded on the ocean or w/e and Ange was practically melting hahaha. Technically, his body is a husk that sort of contains his psychic entity-ness. However, it does prove to have LIMITED human function in various areas, so I like to play with that!

I also liked to pretend that the reason his parents always send him socks for Christmas is because he constantly whines about his feet being cold (same reason he would wear gloves all the time, too; your limbs are peripheral and the furthest away from the body’s trunk and therefore most sensitive to temperature sensations). I’ve expanded on that in writing before where basically his buddies just spoil him with sweaters, socks, and blankets for Christmas and birthdays. 🙂

(though, to be honest, the dead/nothingness idea really intrigues me too and I think that’s got some HUGELY interesting psychology attached to it!)

Ooooh. I like.

dorksidefiker:

blithefool:

You know what would be neat? If Jono had this sort of clear polycarbonate mask that held in his flames but gave his lower face shape- so you could still see the psi-fire but it would be contained. It could even have a blaster like his contraption from the AoA- but it wouldn’t weigh a ton. Seriously. That thing must have been so uncomfortable. How the hell did he sleep with it on?

Assuming that he did sleep (I continue to cling tightly to the headcanon that Jono doesn’t actually sleep, and you will pry it from my cold, dead fingers), probably not very well until he got used to it.  Of course, once he reached that point, he probably wouldn’t think about it at all.

Yeah, I mean, he doesn’t really have any other normal bodily functions so it’s entirely possible he also doesn’t require sleep anymore either. He might sort of…meditate? Being up 24/7 would get old rather quickly.

They knew what his power was going to be before it manifested so he had to be strapped into that thing ahead of time and then just wait for his body to explode. I just realized how incredibly fucked up that is.

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stellarvisionary:

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in-another-castle:

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twbasketcase:

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angelophile:

Pretty much everything that’s wrong with the Jono/Paige relationship in one handy bite-sized chunk.

Paige over-romanticizes.

Jono is a terrible idiot.

(From Generation X #48 by Jay Faerber and Terry & Rachel Dodson.)

I always felt bad for them. It was obvious that they loved each other, but Paige was TOO emotional, and Jono suffered from intense emotional constipation, due to his fear of intimate contact.

Yes this ^

And they were 16. Add all the normal teenage insecurities to the ones these two had and it’s no wonder it never worked out.

actually Jono’s 18-19 here. but somehow after lobdell and Bachalo left the book people forgot that Jono was 2-4 years older than everyone else minus the adults, Leech and Artie

Emotionally constipated at any age, really.

This is true. Jono is the living, flaming personification of emotional constipation because of his self-hate, and more or less untreated depression. 

but that’s why we love him, am I right?

And really, aside of his fear of intimacy, self-hatred, and depression, Jono was otherwise a fairly normal kid for his age at the time. Like…if we look at the AoA version of Chamber, and his relationship with AoA Husk, if they’d caught Jono’s mutation earlier and not had him blow a hole in himself, he might have turned out a little more emotionally balanced and willing to let people in.

Speaking of AoA Chamber, isn’t it sad that the world where everyone else is harder, grittier, and more angsty is the one world where Jono is at his happiest?

AoA Jono isn’t gloomy like 616 Jono but he’s still pretty dark. He kills a lot of people ( like the carriage driver) without batting an eye. So, he might be less outwardly depressed but he’s still imbalanced. But so is everyone else.