blithefool:

Seriously. Get out of my head.

Trigger warning for talk of suicide and general depression

I’m gonna go out on a limb here and say dorksidefiker probably inspired all of these. She gives me many Jono feels.

When Jono was 12, he begged his parents for a guitar. They dismissed the idea as ‘pure frivolity’ then retreated to their summer home. So, Jono scrimped and saved his pennies and, 8 months later, was able to afford a very well worn Epiphone. The action was horrible and the strings made his fingers bleed. He loved it.

Jono didn’t find out Gayle was ‘Lady Edgerton’ until the third date. He promptly accused her of slumming it in typical indignant Jono fashion. He still wonders why she forgave him.

Jono Starsmore has attempted suicide twice in his short life. The first was when he was 16 and feeling particularly useless. He swallowed a fist full of his mother’s pills. His father found him and he had to have his stomach pumped. The second occasion was at The Massachusetts Academy. The only one who knew was Angelo and he’d seethed and punched Jono square in the nose when he found out. It hurt far more than carving into his wrists had.

After suicide attempt number 1, Jono’s parents had threatened to have him committed. He managed to  talk them down by agreeing to see a therapist. His name was Howard and Jono hated him. He spent the first month of therapy in a staring contest with the man. Eventually, Jono decided to just lie. That was its own form of entertainment.

Jono is, primarily, a self taught musician, though he did learn a few things busking with Julian. Julian was middle aged, unwashed and, presumably, homeless. Jono couldn’t remember a time when Julian wasn’t inebriated but, he was a hell of a guitar player.

 When Angelo died Jono kept his engraved Zippo lighter and his crucifix. They’re in the top drawer of his dresser.

I forgot about these…